Hi all,
I have wanted to post on this thread for quite sometime now, actually since Adam first started this thread. As others have said it a credit to Adam and the forum members for this awful affliction to become as normal to talk about as the weather.
My own issues started way back in 2002 ( actually was instigated in 1970 !!) when I tried the most stupid thing of trying to end it all, fortunately all that happened was a night in hospital and a stomach pump, I tried counseling immediately after this as my GP fast tracked me to the correct department. Sadly however, the guy I was given ( as I found out later) was just out of training and I simply could not connect with him , I was learn that he left the NHS shortly afterwards. This put me off getting any further professional help for quite sometime. Then another rather sad affair saw me in hospital again wearing an oxygen mask after trying to do the same trick using my car exhaust ( actually, it is rather embarrassing to see those words in print here for me !)
Fast forward to 2014 and I had enough of feeling like this all the time and went to my GP again, I was once again given some help in what they now called CBT, and I have to say after many many sessions over two years, it really did help.
There really isn't one session or one thing I was told to think about that did the trick, I think it was perhaps the opportunity of just simply telling 'my story' to someone who not only listened , but understood - and the most important aspect was that they had empathy, a word that is lacking these days ( or was).
So an an ex 'service user', PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do get help should you going down the slippery slope of self harm or worse. I never ever thought I could be cured as it were , but the brain really is just a rather wet computer and as such can be reprogrammed with new instructions, it may well take time to delete those unwanted files but once done you end up with a nice organised system, capable of dealing with any problems that its given without crashing all the time.
All I need to do now is start working again, as that all stopped in 2002, this Covid has somewhat delayed that as I finally felt able to cope with a work environment again , but I will get there.
When we can all meet up again Adam, remind me to buy you a beer at the Green Man for starting this thread, yes we have met before at a Lancs meet once.
Richard